So it has been a difficult week. I have been dealing with the breakup of my relationship. It’s a hard change; 3 years is not a short amount of time and will not be forgotton. I am not certain of where I am going now, well I know what I am doing but it has changed the future. (NB. That is impossible due to the fact that the future is unwritten; and the past is already written and cannot change.)
I am now re-entering a state of self analysis. Which is a good thing, I find my mind is more free, I feel a sense of freedom. Take today, I woke up at a reasonable time, not feeling ill like the past few days and took a jaunt into the centre to meet with a close friend of mines mother who is visiting him in London today. Enjoyed a chat with them both and have since been wandering and currently find myself on Goodge Street with a pint sitting outside in the unsettled weather. I have taken a few pictures when I deemed it worthy; it’s weird acting like a tourist when actually I am taking pictures for pleasure. I have no plans as to the rest of the day, the carefreeness that was, I don’t know how to put it this is the closest I can get ‘Jailed’, but that is too strong a term.
I think it’s time to finish this Gunniess and wander a litte more. I shall update this post as I journey; who knows where from next?
I have only walked to the next junction, back to an old favourite of mine; ICCo Goodge Street. They do good and cheap pizza.
I do worry about the one which I have just parted from, I hope she is well and want her to be happy. I am quite confident she will be happier in the future. At the moment we are having some quiet time to allow us both to get on with life and move forward.
Food arrived, next update from?
The train from Paddington to Ealing broadway; with a diversion from the Bakerloo to Circle line due to a person under a train, well not my train, the train infront. Shame. Oh and the pizza was nice!
Have taken a few more “Living London” pics, well not of people, buildings actually buildings in a state of repair, demolision and construction. As always with my solo wanderings I am listening to some DnB; a really nice set from Carl Matthas including an exellent mix by Soul Tech, it really fits as a wandering soundtrack.
I think a pint in the North Star before heading home.
Now typing with Westons Scrumpy, at least I think that is the brand. Very tasty; but I am only allowing myself one due to wanting to go for a cycle tomorrow morning.
So I think even though the writing of the blog post and wander I am feeling better. Not feeling too alone, confident of the future. I’m sure that over the coming months I will feel back to my old self. I’m not saying that she was stopping me being myself, but I was. I had changed to fit with her and it wasn’t for the best. I want us to have an amicable friendship in the future, we’ll get there. Time to finish this post, drink this pint and continue listening to the uber-mix by Soul Tech.
Cheers,
DanB.